Reconnecting continued.

I realized that I should have just posted that last one and then go on. Anyways I didn't finish. I needed to explain about the big reconnect. Wait, maybe it's not so big a deal, but it was unexpected. I got a call at 1:38 am from a person that I have preciously blogged about whom I had many feelings about. Ha! You know when there's just this reoccurring person that somehow manages to influence your life with this invisible hand and no matter how many phone calls you ignore and no matter how many times you tell yourself you're not the way you are because that's the way he says you are....this is getting complicated. He called, caught me off guard, a.k.a. called when I was full on asleep picking up only out of some weird reflex. He laughed that he had duped me into picking up. It's true I had been ignoring his calls, but I don't know why!!!

Honestly now I don't know what we talked about for two hours in the middle of the morning, but damn him! For the rest of the week I was on again about the idea of marrying him. The drama with mine and his relationship is more than every other drama with a guy combined! I fully attribute this complications to my nature, he seems very content with the constant state of limbo that we are in. Either that or he's not letting on that he thinks about us. The thing that really bothers me is that he says things like, "I miss you" and when I tell him that he's too tired to talk and that he should go to bed he whines "oh." in a pathetic, no-don't-leave-me kind of way. So manipulative. There's got to be a definition for something in between platonic and romantic. That's the limbo that I'm talking about.

Anyways, fast forward to last night when we talked about the things I've been thinking over the last week when everytime one of us called the other was too busy or to tired to do anything but touch bases. He sounded tired again (doesn't get cranky, just mostly slow and disjointed in speech which is frustrated when asking questions that matter to me) but resisted getting off the phone saying that he was just fine. So I tested him by pulling out the big guns and asking what the hell we were all about and delving into the whole relationship limbo thing (I guess there are just some concepts that are too abstract for me to grasp, I'm just so human....)It resulted in a very interesting conversation about dating; apparently he was dating 3 people at the same time, but only platonically which I think discounts the whole purpose of dating. He used the term "to go steady" when referring to the state of dating romantically before the stage of intent to marry dating. If was pretty ridiculous, but it did define lines which shed light on his twisted mind when it came to committing to an EC. Anyways, I agreed to move to LA pending securing a job there.